Gussy’s Blog

I have been reading this blog alot recently. It is a good read and i am recommending it cause, well he seems to have his head on straight.

Paul Orfalea- Kinko’s Founder.

Over the last few weeks i have been getting lots of compliments. It has ranged from my new found snowboarding abilities to my work as a lift operator even the type of person that i am becoming. One thing that has got me all the time has been the fact that people have said it in the first place. It hasn’t always been Canadians either, Australians and New Zealanders have chipped in. I thought it would be the positive affirmation stuff from the Canadians, kind of like the American thing.

This has surprised me. Why? Well cause of the fact that i normally don’t hear many compliments, it made me think of a post i did ages ago. Don’t get me wrong i do love compliments, they rock! The thing that has shocked me has been the frequency of them and how passionate they are. They are not like ” Your not bad at..” They are positive, like “You rip pretty hard for how long..”etc.

I do value each and every compliment that i get, it makes me feel special. Maybe i should start handing out more? I just don’t want them to appear hollow. The fact that so many compliments have been handed to me over the last few weeks made me scared of the person that i am becoming. Weird? Yeah it is a bit hard to handle receiving the volume that i have. Now i don’t want to appear pigheaded, cause that is the last thing i am. It is just, well not normal. One every few weeks would do me fine. Now let me state that there is nothing about myself that i don’t like at the moment. In fact i am loving life at the moment. It seems as though, most things are going along smoothly. I still have my ups and downs, the news about dad has been a big up. Other situations made life complicated, but still enjoyable. All i can say now is that, i love the compliments, and everything is going so smoothly i love it.

Now i normally don’t put post up in Internet Explorer, mainly because i don’t like Microsoft or the software that they produce or the way they go around with there business. Im an open source kinda guy. So imagine my suprise when i login to Wordpress, and see a new little logo down the bottom of my pages. Yep, it is a Browse Happy icon. Basically it is a site designed by someone at Wordpress trying to get people to use other browsers. Awesome. Truely. Magnificient. What more can i say, but if you use IE for anything and have a choice, change. If you don’t have a choice ask your lovely Sys Admin person to put it in for you. You will not regret it. Firefox or anything else is much better, faster and complies more with the standards set down by the W3.

Now things are not going according to plan. It was meant to just be a stroke. But at the moment it is turning a whole lot more sour. Dad has had MRI’s, CAT scans, the works. The results? FUCKED. It looks like and inoperable brain tumour at the base of his brain. Hurrah!(Note: Sarcasm!!) 52, and struck down with that. I don’t know many details at the moment. Like what it is called or where abouts in the brain it is, apart from location. The stupid thing is that in Sydney it is a public holiday on Monday, and he can’t be seen until Tuesday. Mmm, i know that Dr’s have lives, but you would think that at least 1 Neurosurgeon would be on call. Luckly my Dr Sister, is over there, throwing her weight around. Funny thing is that she is training to be a surgeon. More renal stuff I hear.
Thanks for all your prays etc, it means heaps. My Girlfriend has been awesome thru it all. She has let me cry on her shoulder many a time. I asked her today if it was all a dream, like an episode of House. Unfortunately not, bugger!

I so wanted to fly over yesterday and just give him a hug and tell him to be strong. SMS just doesn’t do it right. We have decided that if he is going under the knife that we will all fly over. Bugger saving for Canada, family is more important.

I tend to have moments when im all together and stoic. Then other moments i fall apart. A song, a thought, anything can set me off. Guys aren’t meant to be this emotional! Damn it!! yeah right, anyone that can handle this without crying or getting upset, is not in the real world.

So i wait and see what will happen till Tuesday. It is going to be the longest 2 days i think i have ever had to face. I can do it. (That last bit was more for me, positive re-enforcement)

So i was talking to a friend the other day. We somehow got onto the subject of Holland. Then i was asking why they have so many names for the one country. The lucky buggers have 3 names. See im annoyed at this, Australians have Australia as the country. England has the English. The Dutch, NOOO they have to be different, they have Holland and the Netherlands. Then i started asking why they weren’t called Hollandises’ or Netherlandians. No good answers were provided to me. The only answer being, ” They have a sauce named Hollandise, so they can’t be called that.” Thus i am dissapointed in the outcome of our disscussion, and had to drastically change topic, only to bring focus back on it again some 30mins later, over another Pint of English Ale. Still waiting for some good answers.

Sunday 28th 1996, 1.30pm. One man changed Australia and the world, forever. His acts may have only lasted less than 8 minutes but have affect many long after this time. It has been 10 years since one man created a new world record for “a one man killing spree”. Of course im talking about Martin Bryant.

Many people have speculated at what made him kill 35 people and injuring 37. I’m not going to try and figure out why, what or how he did what he did. What Martin did was change Australia, in a fundamental way. He created national laws that prohibit the use of many guns, without a license. Automatic and Semi-automatic “Military style” guns were also banned from being imported and sold. This is huge, one man, such huge changes. I don’t really blame the government for doing what they did. I support it, one thing they didn’t tackle at the time, which could have helped was the fact that Martin had mental health issues.

The fact that he has the mental age of an 11 year old, and able to get his hands on such powerful weapons, and also live on his own, is baffling. How come he didn’t have a carer? Was he let down by the system? Most would say yes. The result are obvious. Whilst im not trying to provide answers here it has been facinating to read all the reports of various perspectives. Even such a long time after it has happend, FOI (freedom of Information) request by various media outlets has been denied. Obviously some people aren’t able fully over what happened. Which i can understand at the same time.
I offer my condolences to the people that have had to suffer and experience anything like this. Sometimes i wonder what i would do when faced with a life changing event such as this, i honestly don’t know what i would do. I would like to think i could handle events, but you never know. I just hope that it never does occur to me or anyone i love.

Sources:

Wikipedia
Crime Library
ABC Radio

OMG, what a hottie. From the minute i saw her in the previews of the biggest loser, i was so going Whoa!, stunner!. ( I also bet that she could win the whole thing, but that im not sure about now, sorry fiona.) So Damn she is hot, those eyes are just…mmmmelting. Sure she was a bit large when she started 101kg (223 pounds) , but meh i know people that have been that size and can still carry it. And no they aren’t guys. Sure it wouldn’t be healthy being that size for ever. But i’m sure it can be worked on, right? Mental voice: “Um Luke, she is on the biggest loser to lose weight you iiidiot!” I always think that appearence isn’t everything. I like to consider myself a sapiosexual. But now she is starting to lose the weight, she is looking hotter and hotter each episode. There are times when i think…”dude (refering to fiona) you are so stupid, why are you crying so freaking much.” Then i remember that she is going thru a hard time, and i can’t be angry at her. Also the fact that i haven’t even met her and probably won’t either makes me come back to reality. But if she happens to do a google search on herself, like the rest of us do (you can all admit it now). Hopefully she will find this and it will work out all good. The end.

So i was thinking about what songs will be considered musical classics when im an “old fart”. You know there is always a radio station that plays “All the classics from the 60’s, 70’s and 80’s” I might have been born at the beginning of the 80’s but i don’t remember all the supposed classic’s of the time. Sure there are some i remember like Belinda Carslie. I used to sing her songs, just a few years ago….. fun times were had by me. My workmates didn’t like it… not sure if it was the bad singing or the theatritics that went along with the song. But back to my thoughts about music so i was thinking that definately “Boom boom shake the room” by Venga boys won’t be in there. I know for sure that Nivarna- any song really and Bush “Glycerine” would be in there. Some songs just speak volumes for me.. the era of grunge. The funny thing was that i think i missed most of it. I was in Brasil when Nirvana and the rest of the grunge scene was exploding. All the questions i got asked were “Do you like Men at Work?”. I didn’t even know who Men at work were!! I would probably include “Gonna make you move” by C&C Music Factory and “Mr Vain” by Culture Beat. Whilst i didnt get heavy into the hole grunge thing lots i did tip into the more popular stuff. It might have seemed shallow, but believe it or not i didnt really own a radio for the whole time i was away, some 2 years. I only had CD’s to listen to, mostly my folks as well. So my music selection may be dated a bit. Coming into the noughtys i hope to high heaven that some songs dont get in ther, just cause they were popular. Like that stupid frog song…and that song where the it is about nothing. Hang on that is most popular songs theses days. Ahh crapsola, what happened to good old music? Did it suddenly get eaten up by the Music companies? Maybe it has yet to be discovered? Speaking of which i found a good new music site- 15 megs of fame. So yeh, i wonder what would be in your music classics?

Well bad new peoples. I had my interview, but didn’t get the job. I was dissapointed but not really upset. It would have been cool working for that company, seeing that it was in mining and all. Hey i’m sure that there are heaps more good ones out there. The one thing that i am bummed about majorly is the fact that it breaks my 5 and 0 record. Now that is a 6 and 1 record. Hopefully it will stay in the right direction, low. With me getting more jobs than rejections.

Some other bad news that i have been meaning to tell you is that my sis that was pregnant, lost her baby. It has been a tough time for her, but she seems to be going ok with it all. It was a bit of a shock for me when i found out. I was kinda looking forward to being an Uncle. Oh well these things happen for a reason, im sure of it. Just need to find the reason.

Watched an Australian Movie the other night, whilst i normally don’t tend to like the Aussie movies. I do like to give them a chance. Seeing that i hadn’t seen one in quite a while, i thought this one would be good. I forgot to read the warnings on the cover.

“MA (Mature Audience), Strong Sex scenes ”

Now i normally don’t cringe when i see that, i normally do the male thing of
“yes sex scenes!!, slightly naked women”. Not this time, i was watching this movie with my folks and my youngest sister. It felt awkward to me, see i haven’t watched to many movies with the folks that have a sexual tone to them. To add to this we are not a family that talks about sex to much, not that i want to know what my folks get up to. (ewww visual images, not good!!! :-/ ) It was a good movie, had a strong undertone of one finding themselves thru the happenings of the past. I don’t want to say to much, cause i might spoil it for you.

Anyhow, i liked the movie, check it out if you can. Peaches.